Downcasted by Amira Haddad

The pain is real

Before my eyes

It is only a matter of time

Until my body dies

No fun

Being an outcast

Growing spiritually in Christ

Yet, reminded of my dark past

Where is the support?

Am I alone?

Holy Spirit, please deliver me

Upon Your marvelous Throne

Walking in flesh

Causes further heartache

And relationships enmeshed

Tried to fit into a box

Where I thought I would belong

Only to be ignored, pushed aside and doxed

Now, more defeated than ever

When this should come easy

Is this feeling going to last forever?

All I want is to belong to a family

I know, it sounds silly

Heavenly Father

You are all I have

Despite the hate I receive

Just for being me

You are my refuge 

In the midst of the storm

Finally

My spirit can now be reformed

Downcasted, but steadfast

In Your strength

The spirit of emptiness will not last

Jesus is my Lord

Amen!